I have been all over the place the last part of the month so no new posts...yikes.
I did want to send something out there as it is almost the end of February and last February I wrote a post about what I wanted for the coming year.
Kinda like a New Year's post but about a month late...whateve, at least I went for it, right!?
The post I am referencing is this one.
In the post I wrote about wanting to make this coming year (of February 2011-February 2012) about
self-love.
About seeing what can change and where there could be some growth and some softness.
Letting go of all the anger and also really addressing my health.
I have to tell you, a LOT has changed in a year!
I don't always write about medical issues because some of them for me (not to mention Travis!) are very personal but so much has changed for me with health this year.
I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease. I also discovered I had a thyroid problem.
I've cut out gluten and wheat.
I feel tons better having done that.
I mean TONS.
No more running to the bathroom, no more bloated tummy.
Very nice addition to my day to not feel "off" after a meal!
I am now on thyroid medication...do I like being on medication?
No.
Does my body now function in a better and more well-rounded way?
Definitely.
Having these two health issues addressed has been huge. Lots of eating switches.
Lots of new options. Lots of "not able to eat that anymore" happened too.
I think what I is more interesting to me is that it took Travis and I moving here for me to finally realize that something was wrong.
We've been in Little Rock almost 2 years now, I started having health issues when we moved here.
Well...what's probably more true is that I slowed down in enough in my life to see that there were some things going in that weren't right.
I wasn't distracted with our wedding, with being in school, or running around to baseball games so, I finally quieted down enough to listen to my body.
This has been a blessing in many ways. It has been lonely too.
Either way you look at it, I have been able to help myself, which is loving me....which is good stuff!
I also loved some green smoothies, which is loving myself enough to eat really well!
I liked doing the smoothie challenge and pushing myself to make that change in the day.
There will be another one coming....I can feel it!
Emotionally things have softened out for me.
I am less resistant to the present. I am more accepting that what is meant to happen is going to happen.
I can see the connection of dots with life situations now.
An example of this would be something that was a huge part of my life, I used to wallow in "why me" about it, I was also very angry....
I had struggled with an eating disorder (this was several years ago, if you really want to know, comment and I'll e-mail you) but had I not had the eating disorder I never would've have met my therapist that I adore and still keep in touch with.
I learned from that experience, I still learn from that as I struggle with weight or I want to not eat certain foods because they are "bad".
But I get why I had the eating disorder be a part of my journey.
I can look at that with gratitude instead of "why me".
Small example but imagine being able to finally see some clarity and learn instead of wanting that time to be erased. Or to act like the lessons I learned from that time weren't really big, bright lessons.
These days I keep seeing this, the connection of why things happen.
Happy I can see the connections. Sometimes I still can't and I wonder why certain things happen.
But I'm more trusting that all things will be as they should.
And really, why fight it?
The Divine will place you where you need to be whether YOU want to be there or not!
: )
I'll call the "Year of Love" experiment a success.
I didn't meditate on love daily or anything like that but I did try to keep an open mind and a much more open heart.
I don't have a new year goal or anything but I have a feeling this next year is gonna be good.
The energy is moving very strongly in that direction~
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