In the training we started talking about the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali and what the primal causes of suffering. Patanjali tells us that there are 5 causes of suffering (theses are called Kleshas).
1- ignorance of your True Self
2-egoism and self-centeredness ( I-ness)
3-attachment to pleasure
4-aversion to pain
5-fear of death
I see this list and I do see that these are real traps that we fall into that separate us from being at peace.
As we kept on, our teacher said the 1st one could be the only one on the list because all the others below it would not be an issue if we did not live in ignorance of the 1st Klesha.
True Self=infinite, eternal, and whole.
We are not this body, we are not of this world, our souls will leave this world to another (world/life/universe).
So, when I was asked the question, "Do you believe you are infinite, eternal, and whole?"
I really had to get with and sit with and ask myself the question...
"Do I ACTUALLY believe I am infinite, eternal, and whole?"
Shit.
I'm now having to face my core beliefs, my fear of death, my questions of believing in heaven/hell, multiple lives....you know...the big stuff.
I was a bit resistant. ; )
And I sat with that.
Why? Why am I resistant to a higher power? Why do I not want to step into the ownership of being a Child of the Divine/God?
And I faced the answer and it felt childish.
But you know, any emotion that you have can and should be felt because no matter how dumb/silly you feel about it, it's there and needs to be felt/moved into.
I didn't want be step into calling myself a child of the Divine because I didn't want to have a faith that even resembled the feelings I have about the guilt/shame/brow beating of what I've experienced as organized religion.
I didn't want to have to be within a certain category and when I set with my thoughts that was it.
That was what was holding me back from being at peace, from feeling my heart expand and shine outward, from being able to let go. Being worried about what "definition/label" people would put onto me.
Wow. Who know it was that simple!? I sure didn't till I sat with it!
And then I sat with my idea of being a Child of the Divine and what that means to me.
It means that we are all connected, that the Universe brings people/places/events into our lives for a reason, that whether it's heaven/hell or multiple lives, I'm a soul and I want to be in this life and in this journey with love.
I feel my soul is part of a vast Universe connected through energy, vibration, pulsation and I want to live within that. I want to own that label. A chosen Child of the Divine.
I'm not claiming to know if it's heaven/hell or multiple lives (although I'm beginning to see multiple lives as a real place to move towards) but I do feel this- we've got this life now and our soul is here for a purpose and then this body will die, the soul will move on so, why not live this life with most love we can?
Powerful.
And for a person who has struggled with self-love, self-definition, self-worth, it was huge for me to feel full, to feel here for a reason. That this path, this life, this body, is where I'm meant to be and it's a good because it's how it is meant to be.
So I stepped into that. I'm owning that. I'm a Child of the Divine, I am infinite, eternal, and whole.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Kripalu...let's start with seeing it shall we? : )
Hi All!
I haven't done a post in a few days, I think it's been a combo of feeling a bit under the weather and also finding it to be a challenge to get my feet back on the ground post training trip.
I'm feeling more centered today...
: )
I thought I'd show you what Kripalu looks like so you can get kind of an idea of where I was at on my adventure.
I have to tell you, I was expecting it to be a resort/spa....I was mistaken.
It is a very cool place but it is more stripped down than I expected, I found it to be a warm (energy-wise). hippie-type commune.
So, that's what the outside of the building looks like, and it overlooks a beautiful lake, mountains all around....I mean, it's pretty spectacular!
There were several reading rooms that had this view and in the silent dining room (where I ate my meals) this was the view. Much easier to feel calm about eating when you get this peaceful view instead of plopping down in front of the t.v..
My living quarters for the trip were dorm-style and I was on the top bunk...I might spring for a private room the next time!
I liked the women in my room, we were all in the 500 hr teacher training so it was good to all be going through the same process. Lights out was at 10:00 p.m. and no cell phones except in certain areas so, very quiet, very introspective.
Really forces you to be with yourself and that can be scary if you don't really want to face being with yourself! Keep in mind, I thought I was very into being with myself...right. : )
So that's where I was and I have to say being isolated and quiet was great, I got used to it.
BUT...
Coming back into "real life" and living my yoga, that's what it's really about.
Next post begins to delve into what came to me in the 10 days and addresses the question I asked in my last post- "Do you believe you are infinite, eternal, and whole?"
I haven't done a post in a few days, I think it's been a combo of feeling a bit under the weather and also finding it to be a challenge to get my feet back on the ground post training trip.
I'm feeling more centered today...
: )
I thought I'd show you what Kripalu looks like so you can get kind of an idea of where I was at on my adventure.
I have to tell you, I was expecting it to be a resort/spa....I was mistaken.
It is a very cool place but it is more stripped down than I expected, I found it to be a warm (energy-wise). hippie-type commune.
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| Kripalu from the bottom of the hill looking up...kinda reminded me of the hotel from "The Shining".... |
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| View from Kripalu out to the lake |
There were several reading rooms that had this view and in the silent dining room (where I ate my meals) this was the view. Much easier to feel calm about eating when you get this peaceful view instead of plopping down in front of the t.v..
My living quarters for the trip were dorm-style and I was on the top bunk...I might spring for a private room the next time!
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| My bunk bed and wardrobe for clothes. |
I liked the women in my room, we were all in the 500 hr teacher training so it was good to all be going through the same process. Lights out was at 10:00 p.m. and no cell phones except in certain areas so, very quiet, very introspective.
Really forces you to be with yourself and that can be scary if you don't really want to face being with yourself! Keep in mind, I thought I was very into being with myself...right. : )
So that's where I was and I have to say being isolated and quiet was great, I got used to it.
BUT...
Coming back into "real life" and living my yoga, that's what it's really about.
Next post begins to delve into what came to me in the 10 days and addresses the question I asked in my last post- "Do you believe you are infinite, eternal, and whole?"
Monday, March 28, 2011
I'm BACK!!!
Hello, Hello!
So, I'm back.... : )
What an experience Kripalu was.
I mean, whoa.
I had no idea what to expect but I was totally blown away by my experience. I know I was anticipating a lot of physical intensity, that's how most trainings have been.
I was not however anticipating crying all week...that's basically what we did.
Good crying; that down to the soul crying, that open up the dark places and let it be ugly cry type of crying.
So...what I'm saying was that it was emotional. : )
And as I look over the past months, the past years, I was meant to go to Kripalu, at this time, with those people and begin to start this Work in my life.
To face the deep held feelings, the deeply pushed down hurts, I needed to face myself, to go there.
I've needed to "go there" for a LONG time. "There" is repressed memories, past hurts, deeply rooted false beliefs, deeply rooted self-judgement, self-loathing, lack of self-trust...the list can keep going.
But, that's that I mean by "going there". Facing the feelings we don't want to face. Facing the losses, the hurts, the fear, the anger that we don't want to deal with.
We all know what I'm talking about...yes....? ;)
I have more to share. I need to process what I learned during my 9 day crying marathon. : )
I want to organize my thoughts and really find what I want to say because for me it was so releasing.
So powerful.
But while I'm organizing my thoughts...
I'll give you simply something to think about...Do you believe that you are infinite, eternal, and whole?
So, till the next blog...
Have a green smoothie and give some hugs!
If you're a student of mine (or a concerned family member!), no worries I am truly all good so I wont' burst into tears the next time I see you.
Promise. : )
So, I'm back.... : )
What an experience Kripalu was.
I mean, whoa.
I had no idea what to expect but I was totally blown away by my experience. I know I was anticipating a lot of physical intensity, that's how most trainings have been.
I was not however anticipating crying all week...that's basically what we did.
Good crying; that down to the soul crying, that open up the dark places and let it be ugly cry type of crying.
So...what I'm saying was that it was emotional. : )
And as I look over the past months, the past years, I was meant to go to Kripalu, at this time, with those people and begin to start this Work in my life.
To face the deep held feelings, the deeply pushed down hurts, I needed to face myself, to go there.
I've needed to "go there" for a LONG time. "There" is repressed memories, past hurts, deeply rooted false beliefs, deeply rooted self-judgement, self-loathing, lack of self-trust...the list can keep going.
But, that's that I mean by "going there". Facing the feelings we don't want to face. Facing the losses, the hurts, the fear, the anger that we don't want to deal with.
We all know what I'm talking about...yes....? ;)
I have more to share. I need to process what I learned during my 9 day crying marathon. : )
I want to organize my thoughts and really find what I want to say because for me it was so releasing.
So powerful.
But while I'm organizing my thoughts...
I'll give you simply something to think about...Do you believe that you are infinite, eternal, and whole?
So, till the next blog...
Have a green smoothie and give some hugs!
If you're a student of mine (or a concerned family member!), no worries I am truly all good so I wont' burst into tears the next time I see you.
Promise. : )
Friday, March 18, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Alright Universe, I'm Listening...
I had a wonderful phone session with my therapist this morning (if you don't have a therapist, might I suggest getting one, they are right up there with journals and green smoothies in my book! : ) ).
We talked about Loneliness. Specifically MY loneliness.
As many of you know Travis and I got married last May, we both moved from different towns and have been settling into living in Little Rock.
This was a big change. For me it was not only a location change but an identity shift from single St. Louis girl, who was out and about, at school and planning her big wedding, to Mrs. Gray, married, wife, yoga instructor and new resident to Little Rock, AR.
Wow, right?
I know people get married all the time and people move all the time and people get new careers all the time but rarely is it all at once so....to say things have shifted in the last year is kinda mild!
And I have welcomed most of these changes.
I love being married, Travis and I are learning to live together, I love having my best friend with me all the time and we have fun. Fun is so good! : )
I also love teaching yoga! My students blow my mind, to see people open up and to have the honor of sharing yoga is so special. Cassandra gave me the opportunity to teach at The Floating Lotus and I am forever grateful for that.
The people I have meet through teaching, the friends I have made here have been so important to me, the kindness and open hearts of these friends (Cassandra, Jami, Rachel), these have been beautiful things.
I also am so blessed to have had my eyes opened to so much health information, so many ways to bring balance into the body, to come into the body and to take positive steps to much better health.
All are things I have really embraced.
All these great things but...
There is still a hard fact that comes into my life almost everyday. And this is it...
I am Lonely.
I struggle with why the Universe has brought us here. Why the Universe didn't have us in St. Louis, why it has been so hard to feel like I belong here.
My answer is to push, meditate on finding friends exactly like my friends I left, to demand of the Universe that I would like a full social calender and then become upset when this does not become a reality.
This has not been productive. Shocker. : )
So, I shared my continued loneliness with my therapist.
She informed me if I wasn't opening up to the Universe.
If I quit asking for one miracle (friends, belonging) that I want my specific way and I simply said,
"O.k., I'm here Divine, I don't know what I'm doing here and why you've put me here but I'm ready. I'm ready because what I'm doing isn't working. I'm ready for you to do it your way."
Then maybe, just maybe, I'll get my miracle, my answer and it will be just as it should.
What perfect sense this makes!
How difficult to actually implement in one's life.
You know, I'm not sure how long we'll be here or what the future holds but it seems like a much better plan to let the Universe do it's Work than for me to keep attempting to control, attach, and demand life work as I will.
I'm ready.
I'm ready to sit, to open, and to release whatever control and expectations I had.
Hopefully, my heart will bloom like this....
And even if it doesn't and this journey to peace with where we are takes a long time, I'm ready to really start that journey.
That was quite a therapy session wasn't it? : )
On another note, I told you I had big info to share with you!
I put this post up as I am heading off to a great adventure. I'm leaving tomorrow to Kripalu to start the first part of my 500 hr teacher training and I am so excited!
As I head off with journals in hand, I have real desire to open, to burn away some of this old energy, old thoughts and to do some "spring cleaning".
I am feeling positive about what will be opened up and the love that can continue to come in.
Off to start packing!
Hope your St. Patrick's Day is going A+!!!
We talked about Loneliness. Specifically MY loneliness.
As many of you know Travis and I got married last May, we both moved from different towns and have been settling into living in Little Rock.
This was a big change. For me it was not only a location change but an identity shift from single St. Louis girl, who was out and about, at school and planning her big wedding, to Mrs. Gray, married, wife, yoga instructor and new resident to Little Rock, AR.
Wow, right?
I know people get married all the time and people move all the time and people get new careers all the time but rarely is it all at once so....to say things have shifted in the last year is kinda mild!
And I have welcomed most of these changes.
I love being married, Travis and I are learning to live together, I love having my best friend with me all the time and we have fun. Fun is so good! : )
I also love teaching yoga! My students blow my mind, to see people open up and to have the honor of sharing yoga is so special. Cassandra gave me the opportunity to teach at The Floating Lotus and I am forever grateful for that.
The people I have meet through teaching, the friends I have made here have been so important to me, the kindness and open hearts of these friends (Cassandra, Jami, Rachel), these have been beautiful things.
I also am so blessed to have had my eyes opened to so much health information, so many ways to bring balance into the body, to come into the body and to take positive steps to much better health.
All are things I have really embraced.
All these great things but...
There is still a hard fact that comes into my life almost everyday. And this is it...
I am Lonely.
I struggle with why the Universe has brought us here. Why the Universe didn't have us in St. Louis, why it has been so hard to feel like I belong here.
My answer is to push, meditate on finding friends exactly like my friends I left, to demand of the Universe that I would like a full social calender and then become upset when this does not become a reality.
This has not been productive. Shocker. : )
So, I shared my continued loneliness with my therapist.
She informed me if I wasn't opening up to the Universe.
If I quit asking for one miracle (friends, belonging) that I want my specific way and I simply said,
"O.k., I'm here Divine, I don't know what I'm doing here and why you've put me here but I'm ready. I'm ready because what I'm doing isn't working. I'm ready for you to do it your way."
Then maybe, just maybe, I'll get my miracle, my answer and it will be just as it should.
What perfect sense this makes!
How difficult to actually implement in one's life.
You know, I'm not sure how long we'll be here or what the future holds but it seems like a much better plan to let the Universe do it's Work than for me to keep attempting to control, attach, and demand life work as I will.
I'm ready.
I'm ready to sit, to open, and to release whatever control and expectations I had.
Hopefully, my heart will bloom like this....
And even if it doesn't and this journey to peace with where we are takes a long time, I'm ready to really start that journey.
That was quite a therapy session wasn't it? : )
On another note, I told you I had big info to share with you!
I put this post up as I am heading off to a great adventure. I'm leaving tomorrow to Kripalu to start the first part of my 500 hr teacher training and I am so excited!
As I head off with journals in hand, I have real desire to open, to burn away some of this old energy, old thoughts and to do some "spring cleaning".
I am feeling positive about what will be opened up and the love that can continue to come in.
Off to start packing!
Hope your St. Patrick's Day is going A+!!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Just a Thought...Journal
Do you have any of these in your home?
Ok, maybe not these exact two.
But, I think that journaling is one of the most important things you can do. Like green smoothies. : )
I know that for myself journaling really has helped me to release my thoughts, to get some perspective and to allow me to move forward from old energy.
I love getting new journals, I think you have to be particular about the energy surrounding them. It takes a special journal to get onto my shelf!
As it is turning into Spring I thought some new journals were in order.
I'm ready to write, release, and move upwards. : )
I try to journal before I teach class, it helps me to clear my mind and really be in my space. Other times I tend to journal before bed, helps to clear my mind so I can sleep.
I have heard it's best to journal in the morning, I can't quite get there...but I think no matter when you pick up your pen, it's a good thing.
So...
Grab a pen and find your Bliss!
Ok, maybe not these exact two.
But, I think that journaling is one of the most important things you can do. Like green smoothies. : )
I know that for myself journaling really has helped me to release my thoughts, to get some perspective and to allow me to move forward from old energy.
I love getting new journals, I think you have to be particular about the energy surrounding them. It takes a special journal to get onto my shelf!
As it is turning into Spring I thought some new journals were in order.
I'm ready to write, release, and move upwards. : )
I try to journal before I teach class, it helps me to clear my mind and really be in my space. Other times I tend to journal before bed, helps to clear my mind so I can sleep.
I have heard it's best to journal in the morning, I can't quite get there...but I think no matter when you pick up your pen, it's a good thing.
So...
Grab a pen and find your Bliss!
Meanies.....
Wow. I don't know what's up with the energy this week and especially today...
Someone was mean to me.
: (
And it's o.k., they apologized (kinda.). It still stung.
I felt like doing this...
So...when you see a stranger today or if you see your friend today, give them a SMILE or maybe a HUG!
Lets get some GOOD energy moving out there instead of angry ego lashing out.
: )
Someone was mean to me.
: (
And it's o.k., they apologized (kinda.). It still stung.
I felt like doing this...
So...when you see a stranger today or if you see your friend today, give them a SMILE or maybe a HUG!
Lets get some GOOD energy moving out there instead of angry ego lashing out.
: )
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Thank you Tuesday...
Thank you Tuesday for starting off smoother than Monday!
I got my car back, she's fine and apparently is was a mysterious electrical glitch that caused the breakdown yesterday...seems a bit odd to me but she's driving fine so, I'll take it!
My car's name is "Lil Bits" by the way, she's a very cute black jetta, I'll post pics in the future. : )
Did a run today, felt pretty good, took me a bit to get into it. I feel like things are having a slow start this week.
What I mean by that is whatever task or activity I do, it seems to take me awhile to find my body in that activity. I ran both yesterday and today and it took me till at least a mile into it to feel like I was in my groove.
Ehh...at least I found a groove I guess!
I also found it to be a challenge yesterday in my yoga practice to settle into my body, my breath, and have my mind stop it's chatter.
I did find that when I took my practice to the 3rd chakra (solar plexus) I was finally able to come into my body and into my power. The 3rd chakra is associated with power, self-esteem, self-worth and heat. I did more core work and some deep twists to really ignite my body and move out of my mind chatter.
I found it to be really helpful to move into a place where it wasn't about this form or that form it was about bringing heat, about burning away that negative talk.
After my practice I want and taught- LOVED the class last night (and I don't mean my teaching, how ego would that be?! : ) )
I simply loved the energy in the space and the openness that everyone came in with.
I know for me as a teacher seeing people really come into their bodies and into beautiful heart openings makes me smile. I know that feeling, that opening and to see it happen in others is so special.
Really a gift.
I kind of got off track but had to share about class, it's so special to share yoga and yesterday I was reminded of that.
Back to today!
I had a session with Jami ( my colon hydro-therapist) after my run and we had some good discussions, I want to address one of the topics but I'm going to think on it a bit before I type it out for the world to read!
I'm doing some yoga tonight and Travis is going to make salmon and....well, something else I'm sure! : )
I got my car back, she's fine and apparently is was a mysterious electrical glitch that caused the breakdown yesterday...seems a bit odd to me but she's driving fine so, I'll take it!
My car's name is "Lil Bits" by the way, she's a very cute black jetta, I'll post pics in the future. : )
Did a run today, felt pretty good, took me a bit to get into it. I feel like things are having a slow start this week.
What I mean by that is whatever task or activity I do, it seems to take me awhile to find my body in that activity. I ran both yesterday and today and it took me till at least a mile into it to feel like I was in my groove.
Ehh...at least I found a groove I guess!
I also found it to be a challenge yesterday in my yoga practice to settle into my body, my breath, and have my mind stop it's chatter.
I did find that when I took my practice to the 3rd chakra (solar plexus) I was finally able to come into my body and into my power. The 3rd chakra is associated with power, self-esteem, self-worth and heat. I did more core work and some deep twists to really ignite my body and move out of my mind chatter.
I found it to be really helpful to move into a place where it wasn't about this form or that form it was about bringing heat, about burning away that negative talk.
After my practice I want and taught- LOVED the class last night (and I don't mean my teaching, how ego would that be?! : ) )
I simply loved the energy in the space and the openness that everyone came in with.
I know for me as a teacher seeing people really come into their bodies and into beautiful heart openings makes me smile. I know that feeling, that opening and to see it happen in others is so special.
Really a gift.
I kind of got off track but had to share about class, it's so special to share yoga and yesterday I was reminded of that.
Back to today!
I had a session with Jami ( my colon hydro-therapist) after my run and we had some good discussions, I want to address one of the topics but I'm going to think on it a bit before I type it out for the world to read!
I'm doing some yoga tonight and Travis is going to make salmon and....well, something else I'm sure! : )
Monday, March 14, 2011
It's such a Monday....
Today has not started out as planned.
We woke up late ( I'll blame it on daylight savings...) and then my car broke down on my way to teach class. Boo.
So I'm coffee deprived from waking up late, didn't get to teach my Solar Flow class and have to deal with the car.
Not what I was expecting today!
I'm feeling calm about it though, Travis said "you're not crabby about this, I'm really proud of you...".
I'm actually fine with it because it's not worth getting worked up over, it's happening as it should and really I can't fight the events that took place this morning.
I'm really easing into the week now and because I wasn't able to teach my 1st class I have a few more minutes to share about the past weekend!
We had such a great time! I LOVE when I get to see my mom! As I've grown older I've really started to appreciate my mom, getting to talk with her and having her listen is one of the greatest blessings in my life and I am so thankful for her. : )
We did lots of fun things, on Friday night Travis grilled salmon and we had a great dinner with good wine and good conversation.
Mom found Travis's "slang flashcards" that I'd gotten him for Valentines Day as a gag gift and it was hilarious hearing her reading them and using the words in a sentence!
I think her favorite word/phrase was "aw snap!"!
Really. Get these cards. They'll entertain for hours. : )
On Saturday we got up and walked the Big Dam Bridge, the weather was perfect and it was a fun time! Avery loves to go on this walk because the wind really blows her 'stache and bust hair, looks like she's flying!
After that we headed to the Clinton Museum where they were having the Doctor Suess exhibit- it was so cool! I had forgotten how much I love Dr. Suess but just looking at all the illustrations and seeing how much he gave the world made me fall in love with his stories all over again.
When we left the museum we walked to the gift shop and ran into the St. Patrick's Day Parade....didn't know Little Rock had one of those but it was a fun surprise!
We got drinks and sat outside because the weather was so nice and just took in some Vitamin D. : )
Saturday we ate at Brave New Restaurant, we sat outside on the patio and with the heat lamps it was perfect. The food was wonderful, I'm recommending the mushroom tart for an appetizer and my grilled veggie plate was delish!
Sunday we got moving slowly, took Avery on her walk and then headed to brunch at 1620, which Travis and I have wanted to try but hadn't gotten around to yet...was sooo good!
My favorite part was the cinnamon roll we split before our actual meals- get it if you're ever at the brunch. Really. Taste Sensation. : )
I'm reading over this and it seems like all we did was eat! I often feel that way with weekend visits, I think showing people where you live is often showing people that food that's there.
I also know that Travis and I don't go out to eat at these places all the time and it's such a fun way to share and to get to try new things.
I was happy we ate, talked and got to explore Little Rock at bit more!
I did make green smoothies for my mom and I in the mornings!
We did a basic, banana, blueberry, spinach, almond milk and matcha blend- really simple and really good.
I love these weekends and yet they make me sad. I always love to have people I love come visit or be able to go and visit friends/family but when the trips are over there's always a sad time for me.
I know that the feelings will pass and I'd rather have my mom come than not but I'm always sad when she goes. : (
Anyways....I hope all of you are moving through your Monday will some peace and calm.
I've got a fun adventure at the end of this week that I'll be filling you in on tomorrow!
We woke up late ( I'll blame it on daylight savings...) and then my car broke down on my way to teach class. Boo.
So I'm coffee deprived from waking up late, didn't get to teach my Solar Flow class and have to deal with the car.
Not what I was expecting today!
I'm feeling calm about it though, Travis said "you're not crabby about this, I'm really proud of you...".
I'm actually fine with it because it's not worth getting worked up over, it's happening as it should and really I can't fight the events that took place this morning.
I'm really easing into the week now and because I wasn't able to teach my 1st class I have a few more minutes to share about the past weekend!
We had such a great time! I LOVE when I get to see my mom! As I've grown older I've really started to appreciate my mom, getting to talk with her and having her listen is one of the greatest blessings in my life and I am so thankful for her. : )
We did lots of fun things, on Friday night Travis grilled salmon and we had a great dinner with good wine and good conversation.
Mom found Travis's "slang flashcards" that I'd gotten him for Valentines Day as a gag gift and it was hilarious hearing her reading them and using the words in a sentence!
I think her favorite word/phrase was "aw snap!"!
Really. Get these cards. They'll entertain for hours. : )
On Saturday we got up and walked the Big Dam Bridge, the weather was perfect and it was a fun time! Avery loves to go on this walk because the wind really blows her 'stache and bust hair, looks like she's flying!
After that we headed to the Clinton Museum where they were having the Doctor Suess exhibit- it was so cool! I had forgotten how much I love Dr. Suess but just looking at all the illustrations and seeing how much he gave the world made me fall in love with his stories all over again.
When we left the museum we walked to the gift shop and ran into the St. Patrick's Day Parade....didn't know Little Rock had one of those but it was a fun surprise!
We got drinks and sat outside because the weather was so nice and just took in some Vitamin D. : )
Saturday we ate at Brave New Restaurant, we sat outside on the patio and with the heat lamps it was perfect. The food was wonderful, I'm recommending the mushroom tart for an appetizer and my grilled veggie plate was delish!
Sunday we got moving slowly, took Avery on her walk and then headed to brunch at 1620, which Travis and I have wanted to try but hadn't gotten around to yet...was sooo good!
My favorite part was the cinnamon roll we split before our actual meals- get it if you're ever at the brunch. Really. Taste Sensation. : )
I'm reading over this and it seems like all we did was eat! I often feel that way with weekend visits, I think showing people where you live is often showing people that food that's there.
I also know that Travis and I don't go out to eat at these places all the time and it's such a fun way to share and to get to try new things.
I was happy we ate, talked and got to explore Little Rock at bit more!
I did make green smoothies for my mom and I in the mornings!
We did a basic, banana, blueberry, spinach, almond milk and matcha blend- really simple and really good.
I love these weekends and yet they make me sad. I always love to have people I love come visit or be able to go and visit friends/family but when the trips are over there's always a sad time for me.
I know that the feelings will pass and I'd rather have my mom come than not but I'm always sad when she goes. : (
Anyways....I hope all of you are moving through your Monday will some peace and calm.
I've got a fun adventure at the end of this week that I'll be filling you in on tomorrow!
Friday, March 11, 2011
My mom is coming!!!!
I am so very excited! My mom is coming into town this weekend! She lives in a town about about 3 hours away so doing a quick weekend is usually pretty easy. : )
I know she left work early so she could get here, see the place, and then we're going to grill- yummy!
I know she left work early so she could get here, see the place, and then we're going to grill- yummy!
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| Getting ready to walk down the aisle! |
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| My mom and I with Terri and Katie My mom hasn't seen the new rental house yet and I'm happy she's going to get to see it. We actually have the pictures hung...at the last house we never got around to that! I'll for sure let you know what we do this weekend. I know we're going to a great place for dinner on Saturday night called Brave New Restaurant, Travis and I celebrated Valentines Day there and it is super yummy! I hope all are having a very fun Friday~ |
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Sleepless night... Boo.
So, couldn't sleep last night- grr.
I met a friend of mine for drinks and then Travis met up and we went out to dinner. we had Mexican which is so yummy but so heavy for the tummy!
We came home, I ate dessert and we watched some t.v....and no sleep for me.
Now that I've started eating cleaner, whenever I eat too much processed food or have too many sweets (or a combination of both!) I can't sleep and I feel really ill. : (
So that was me last night but on a positive note....
I read one of the new books I got while I was awake and it was WONDERFUL!
Sarah's Key by Tatiana De Rosnay is a good read, so good you can finish it in one sleepless night!
Which brings me to my other book that I read in just one weekend (last weekend to be exact!)
Little Bee by Chris Cleave, very good, tough subject matter but very well written!
My next book to read is going to be....
I have heard of this book before and apparently it is required reading in High School now? I don't know about that but I'm going to give it a go.
All the books are about serious subjects, serious emotions, hard events that have happened to people but I think it's good to know, to know what humans can do to other humans. To be aware so we cannot turn a blind-eye again to what can happen when hate takes people over.
Anyone have any other book suggestions? I'm open to hearing them, these books were recommended to my by my yoga students and so far they haven't steered me wrong yet! : )
I'm going to try and energize for the day...had a green smoothie to get back on track, I have a colonic this morning and then I believe I will do yoga tonight!
I met a friend of mine for drinks and then Travis met up and we went out to dinner. we had Mexican which is so yummy but so heavy for the tummy!
We came home, I ate dessert and we watched some t.v....and no sleep for me.
Now that I've started eating cleaner, whenever I eat too much processed food or have too many sweets (or a combination of both!) I can't sleep and I feel really ill. : (
So that was me last night but on a positive note....
I read one of the new books I got while I was awake and it was WONDERFUL!
Which brings me to my other book that I read in just one weekend (last weekend to be exact!)
Little Bee by Chris Cleave, very good, tough subject matter but very well written!
My next book to read is going to be....
I have heard of this book before and apparently it is required reading in High School now? I don't know about that but I'm going to give it a go.
All the books are about serious subjects, serious emotions, hard events that have happened to people but I think it's good to know, to know what humans can do to other humans. To be aware so we cannot turn a blind-eye again to what can happen when hate takes people over.
Anyone have any other book suggestions? I'm open to hearing them, these books were recommended to my by my yoga students and so far they haven't steered me wrong yet! : )
I'm going to try and energize for the day...had a green smoothie to get back on track, I have a colonic this morning and then I believe I will do yoga tonight!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
In case you were wondering...
I realized that I'm always talking about yoga and teaching but I think most people haven't seen where I teach or my fellow teachers.
Below is a link to the studio where I teach and I would LOVE for you all to check it out! I think you really get a sense of who we all are and that we love the yoga life.
www.floatinglotusyogastudio.com
I'm always blown away at the feeling after a class, so much comes up and no matter what it is, it's a discovery. I found out tonight I am needing to work on my authentic voice, to really come into how I feel and what I'm wanting in my life. I was practicing and I kept having my ego come in, my negative body image raise up and having a feeling of being "unsettled"...it was a surprising discovery, wasn't expecting it tonight. I'm feeling a lack of foundation now. I'll come back to these feelings, I'm going to sit with them, keep exploring and see what rises up. Should be an adventure! : )
Something for you to look forward to tomorrow- I got some new new books and I cannot wait to share them with you! : )
Below is a link to the studio where I teach and I would LOVE for you all to check it out! I think you really get a sense of who we all are and that we love the yoga life.
www.floatinglotusyogastudio.com
I'm always blown away at the feeling after a class, so much comes up and no matter what it is, it's a discovery. I found out tonight I am needing to work on my authentic voice, to really come into how I feel and what I'm wanting in my life. I was practicing and I kept having my ego come in, my negative body image raise up and having a feeling of being "unsettled"...it was a surprising discovery, wasn't expecting it tonight. I'm feeling a lack of foundation now. I'll come back to these feelings, I'm going to sit with them, keep exploring and see what rises up. Should be an adventure! : )
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| Personal Favorite- Wheel. Heart opener and energizer! |
Something for you to look forward to tomorrow- I got some new new books and I cannot wait to share them with you! : )
A little sore this morning! (and a Green Smoothie recipe!)
I woke up this morning a bit sore! I'm guessing that's because for the past two days I've taught two classes per day...that's a lot of two's!
On Sunday I had my new beginner series start and Candlelight yoga, yesterday was my Solar Flow class and then Basics. All the classes went well and I think teaching beginners is always a learning experience, for them and for me!
I think if you've practiced yoga for awhile or you teach it's easy to assume that everyone knows what the asanas (poses) are and that the body placement needs to be. When you teach people who are just starting out of their yoga journey you see that you've had years to find your body in that pose, they're just feeling what that pose is for the first time. It's meticulous and it's so good for me to teach so I can see where my language needs to be more clear, what I can do to relate better to my students. It also makes me happy to see people experience yoga in a deeper way as they come into a pose that they've never experienced before.
Yesterday I ended up doing the Solar Flow practice with my class, really liked it, we did lots of hip openers! Was a great way to start the day. : )
I had a few discoveries yesterday....
I made a great green smoothie for my afternoon snack!
Here it is:
1 cup almond milk
1 cup blueberries
Big handful spinach
1 teaspoon matcha (or maca if you checked out my post with the great link!)
Water- however much you want, less if you like a thicker smoothie, more for a more liquid one
I like almond milk, it has a sweet flavor and is a good base for smoothies!
I also made an unexpected discovery when I had a bit of a wardrobe malfunction and had to grab some new clothes before I taught class last night. I won't go into details but my top wasn't working and it would've gotten awkward in class if I did a demonstration! Yikes!
I'm used to Lululemon being available, there is no such store here so...off I went to Gap Body.
I was pleasantly surprised!
I got cropped capri pants (sexy boot), a long, racerback black tank, and a hot pink racerback sports bra- everything fit great!!! This is huge when you have people looking at you in the front of a class!
I'm going to go ahead and give Gap Body Fit my thumbs up. : )
Lots of errands to do today, have a friends baby shower coming up and I've gotta start looking at cute baby things, this won't be a chore! : )
Hope that your day is BRIGHT!!!
On Sunday I had my new beginner series start and Candlelight yoga, yesterday was my Solar Flow class and then Basics. All the classes went well and I think teaching beginners is always a learning experience, for them and for me!
I think if you've practiced yoga for awhile or you teach it's easy to assume that everyone knows what the asanas (poses) are and that the body placement needs to be. When you teach people who are just starting out of their yoga journey you see that you've had years to find your body in that pose, they're just feeling what that pose is for the first time. It's meticulous and it's so good for me to teach so I can see where my language needs to be more clear, what I can do to relate better to my students. It also makes me happy to see people experience yoga in a deeper way as they come into a pose that they've never experienced before.
Yesterday I ended up doing the Solar Flow practice with my class, really liked it, we did lots of hip openers! Was a great way to start the day. : )
I had a few discoveries yesterday....
I made a great green smoothie for my afternoon snack!
Here it is:
1 cup almond milk
1 cup blueberries
Big handful spinach
1 teaspoon matcha (or maca if you checked out my post with the great link!)
Water- however much you want, less if you like a thicker smoothie, more for a more liquid one
I like almond milk, it has a sweet flavor and is a good base for smoothies!
I also made an unexpected discovery when I had a bit of a wardrobe malfunction and had to grab some new clothes before I taught class last night. I won't go into details but my top wasn't working and it would've gotten awkward in class if I did a demonstration! Yikes!
I'm used to Lululemon being available, there is no such store here so...off I went to Gap Body.
I was pleasantly surprised!
I got cropped capri pants (sexy boot), a long, racerback black tank, and a hot pink racerback sports bra- everything fit great!!! This is huge when you have people looking at you in the front of a class!
I'm going to go ahead and give Gap Body Fit my thumbs up. : )
Lots of errands to do today, have a friends baby shower coming up and I've gotta start looking at cute baby things, this won't be a chore! : )
Hope that your day is BRIGHT!!!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
What's Maca? Great article link below!
I accidentally bought Maca instead of Matcha when I was getting ingredients for my green smoothies...but this turned out to be a blessing in disguise!
Check out the link below to see all the great benefits of Maca, I think I'm going to add it to baked goods like some cookies or something.
There are so many benefits to this superfood I think it would be a good edition to anyone's supplement routine. : )
The Wellness Warrior: Superfood profile: Maca: "Continuing with my David Wolfe obsession, today I'm going to give you the low down on another of his favourite superfoods – maca, or maca r..."
Check out the link below to see all the great benefits of Maca, I think I'm going to add it to baked goods like some cookies or something.
There are so many benefits to this superfood I think it would be a good edition to anyone's supplement routine. : )
The Wellness Warrior: Superfood profile: Maca: "Continuing with my David Wolfe obsession, today I'm going to give you the low down on another of his favourite superfoods – maca, or maca r..."
Unknown and dinner...
Well, I have to report that I found Unknown to be a bit underwhelming. : ( I mean, it was o.k. but I've seen better action movies, IT just didn't hold my attention.
It's what we like to call "a renter"! Hehehe!
We did have date night last night!!!
We went to Trios here in Little Rock- taste sensation!!!
We got the crab dip as an appetizer, salads and then I got the Curried Coconut Shrimp, Travis got the Voodoo pasta ( black pasta w shrimp, chicken, sausage and cream sauce)! Travis said it was "sass-tastic"!
REALLY good food! Recommended for all!
And....I talked with my mom and she's coming to visit next weekend! Soo excited to show her the new place and to take her around town! : )
It's what we like to call "a renter"! Hehehe!
We did have date night last night!!!
We went to Trios here in Little Rock- taste sensation!!!
We got the crab dip as an appetizer, salads and then I got the Curried Coconut Shrimp, Travis got the Voodoo pasta ( black pasta w shrimp, chicken, sausage and cream sauce)! Travis said it was "sass-tastic"!
REALLY good food! Recommended for all!
And....I talked with my mom and she's coming to visit next weekend! Soo excited to show her the new place and to take her around town! : )
Saturday, March 5, 2011
One of my Favorites! Sooo yummy!!!
I have developed a new obsession...it is soo good.
Peanut Butter has always been a favorite, classic, healthy fat, good for energy and it's so tasty.
I have found a new twist that is better than Peanut Butter! How could this be you ask?!
Introducing: Maple Almond Butter!!!
I'm letting you know that it's really the best nut butter out there! And you can get Justin's Nut Butters in individual packets so you can take them with you for a snack. It's also really nice to have them pre-portioned if you're like me and tend to want to eat the whole jar ( I'm dangerous with an open jar of this stuff and a spoon!)!
I usually can get them at a grocery store here but I was quite happy to discover that I could order them in bulk on-line! How convenient!!!
There are lots of other flavors...
As you can see...I've tried several of them, Maple Almond Butter is my absolute favorite though! : )
I usually have a nut butter packet, goji berries and the start of my green smoothie to begin the day- awesome energy!
On another note-
It's the weekend!!!
We're going to see Unknown (that movie with Liam Neeson) at the early showing today, I'll be sure to give a review later. I think it's gonna be good. : )
Have a happy Saturday~
Peanut Butter has always been a favorite, classic, healthy fat, good for energy and it's so tasty.
I have found a new twist that is better than Peanut Butter! How could this be you ask?!
Introducing: Maple Almond Butter!!!
I'm letting you know that it's really the best nut butter out there! And you can get Justin's Nut Butters in individual packets so you can take them with you for a snack. It's also really nice to have them pre-portioned if you're like me and tend to want to eat the whole jar ( I'm dangerous with an open jar of this stuff and a spoon!)!
I usually can get them at a grocery store here but I was quite happy to discover that I could order them in bulk on-line! How convenient!!!
There are lots of other flavors...
As you can see...I've tried several of them, Maple Almond Butter is my absolute favorite though! : )
I usually have a nut butter packet, goji berries and the start of my green smoothie to begin the day- awesome energy!
On another note-
It's the weekend!!!
We're going to see Unknown (that movie with Liam Neeson) at the early showing today, I'll be sure to give a review later. I think it's gonna be good. : )
Have a happy Saturday~
Thursday, March 3, 2011
I got some energy and had another Good for me Thursday!
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| Green Guinness!!! hehe! |
It was super good and really simple, I'm calling it Banana's Spinach.
Here it is:
1 frozen banana
Big handful spinach
1 1/2 cups water
cinnamon/honey to taste
Told you it was simple! It's mild, has good texture and it may be my favorite smoothie variation thus far.
I had my appointment with my fabulous colon hydrotherapist, Jami and felt great afterwards! We always talk about life, what's going on and I'm happy to have that outlet here, good to have someone with a real sense of what's true in life.
I'll be touching in more on what colonics are and why I've become a fan in a future post. Get ready, it's going to involve bathroom business. : ) It won't be scary, I promise!
Did some planning for my new yoga beginner series that starts Sunday at the studio, really excited for it! I have a full class and I'm ready to share. I think it's really great that so many people want to know about yoga, it's really an honor to start people on their path. Kind of a big responsibility in all seriousness....but not too serious, it is me teaching after all! : )
I also did some reading from my book selection-
Little Bee is great so far, I'll go out on a limb and recommend it already, that's how good it reads.
One of my students suggested it and I trust her taste so, that's two people with good taste letting you know you should read it!
Travis came home and....he got a raise!!! Woo! Woo!
That's always nice to hear on a Thursday, right?!
Made a little celebration dinner and settled in to watch some Law & Order...not too shabby. : )
I learned to make Roasted Spicy Cauliflower with this meal so, if you visit....this may just be a side dish!
Happy the energy was better than yesterday, at least it was for me. : )
Good Morning and are you bright-eyed and bushy tailed like this one?
Avery has discovered how to get up and see outside into the backyard. Squirrels beware!!!
She's really into it and it's pretty cute! : )
Post again later but for now I leave you with a very on-point Avery and a hope that you have energy to start the day (a green smoothie perhaps? : ) ) and intentions to see in your life to keep the positives going!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Green Smoothie Recipe!
I tried a new Green Smoothie recipe this morning and I've gotta tell you, wasn't my favorite. : (
I do think that some might really like it because it's very mild so, totally try it and see what you think... Travis tasted it and thought it was pretty good, which is pretty high praise! : )
Blend:
2 big handfuls spinach
1 mango
2 cups water
Dash of cinnamon
It was a texture issue for me with this one, thought the mango made it slimy but you may love it so, experiment away!
I'll be making more smoothies this week and I may just bust out my juicer so, I'll be sure to post up whatever I try!
Happy Blending!
I do think that some might really like it because it's very mild so, totally try it and see what you think... Travis tasted it and thought it was pretty good, which is pretty high praise! : )
Blend:
2 big handfuls spinach
1 mango
2 cups water
Dash of cinnamon
It was a texture issue for me with this one, thought the mango made it slimy but you may love it so, experiment away!
I'll be making more smoothies this week and I may just bust out my juicer so, I'll be sure to post up whatever I try!
Happy Blending!
Manifestations and the Board
In life I think we attract what we put out to the Universe, so why not put your thoughts and energy towards positive/good things?
It makes sense but I know it's very hard to do. I tend to expect the worst, to assume things may not work out and if I'm in a bad mood, trust me you can read my energy loud and clear- and I won't be wanting to change that mood thank you very much! ;)
I need to shift my mood, my outlook, my expectations, my idea that the Universe won't provide...and I've got a step to help me go in that direction!
Now I have read about "intention boards" or "goal boards" before....I thought they were cheesy. Lame. Art and Crafts. I am waaaay to cool for any of that.
Well guess what?
I made my Manifestations/Intentions board today.
It's sitting in my meditation space just waiting to be focused on, to visualize my desires happening and to send positive energy into those words/pictures I lovingly placed on the board.
I chose to make the board because I want to be clear about what I want in my life. I need to see the words written out for me to remind myself that I want much more and that I can bring much more into my life.
It does take time, I have time...another reason I needed to do a Manifestation board- I need to get clear on what I really want so I can get my butt moving in that direction!
I see Manifesting thoughts and energy into your life like planting a seed. You plant the seed
(thought/attitude/job/goal/emotion) in the ground, feed it with water (breath/energy/studies/effort/focus) and then it can Bloom (get job/emotions become softer/relationships more open/success/comfort/happiness).
The visual speaks to me, my blooming flower is red and energy shines out in gold all around. I'm serious, that's what I see when I think on my Manifestations blooming. Love it! : )
All this leads to my afternoon...
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| I picked up my green juice to give me craft energy... |
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| Lit my most favorite candle.... |
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| Made my Manifestation Board!!! |
Here are a few close ups for you!
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| Me and Travis. The tree of Love (from our save-the-dates from the wedding, recognize it?) : ) |
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| Two of the things I want to Manifest in my Life |
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| Me and my Dad. Career dream and what I want while we're here. |
I don't have a super fancy camera but I think you can see most of it!
I have the words "compassion" and "peace" because I truly want more of those two energies in my life.
I also have career manifestations, I want get my 500 hr yoga teacher training done and I want to get my massage license in Arkansas to specialize in pregnancy and infant massage.
I want to have more travel in my life and the resources to do so.
I have the word "Baby", because I want to be a mom. And no, I'm not pregnant or "trying" so, calm down! : )
I've included a picture of my dad and I from when I was little. I think that relationship is important, it has always been important and in the future I want to delve into more feelings about that relationship, to let those old energies release.
Last but not least at all is a picture of Travis & I. This is my marriage, it's my rock and it's the foundation for our family- front and center, let it bloom!
I think it's time to get clear about what I want, time to put it out there (literally) and put energy on what I want to bring into my life.
I like it, I hope you do too!
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